@ngel's story

miss you

2010-11-21T05:51:00.000-08:00

suddenly...i was just thinking bout you!i miss you so much...so many things n so many ppl make me think of u....i miss u sooo much!u left me 1 year back....wat u've done for me, i appreciate it sooo much....wat i've now, is wat u've given me...n wat u've taught me all this years make me into a wonderful woman...the way u trained me up, the way u protect n taught me, makes me a strong woman!i miss u...i miss ur voice, i miss ur presence!i miss the way u look at me...i miss the way u hug me!

i know life is short, i should appreciate everything i've now..but nothing beats the moment if u r here to share everything v me...

party nite...

2010-08-22T20:05:00.000-07:00

on friday, suddenly i've this crazy idea to have a party in someone's place!so i discuss this v mag, my fren..and v were all deciding whr to hold the whole function!it's either my house, her house, or shaleny's house!my house, got rabbit and new housemate, somemore they dunwan to dance in my room, so OUT!shalen's house, joel wanna study, rat also studying, so OUT!so finally, mag offer her own house...:D

v brought our own speaker, own junk food, own alcohol, n own songs..:D we start the party at around 10pm!v start moving all the furniture and start transfering the songs, putting the speaker in place...check out whether the neighbour will get the noise polution anot!this and tat...
this is mag and nisha adjusting the speaker at 1st!nisha started dancing without realising!

this is the alcohol i bought for them!stout...hahahaha!yea, of all the beer i can get from 7-11, i choose a stout!even mag, nisha and tata almost fainted..hahahaha!but i like it...

this is my cup..:D

mag was trying to curi minum the stout!she wants to b the 1st to open ceremony..she is using a flat head screw driver trying to open it!finally she gave up opening and ask for help!so 3 gals were thinking how to open it v a screw drivre!but finally, v still manage to open it v a can opener!mag should told us earlier tat she has a can opener right???XD

i think mag is abit tipsy aldi!n nisha, i think she wanna give her best pose, but mag just ruined the whole thing!XD
they were busy discussing wat songs to put, whr to put the speaker, whr to dance, turn off all the lights or leave 1 lights on, how to reduce noise pollution, should close the window anot, sooo many things to discuss!headache...
this is how v finally plan to set up!just a simple 1...but v discuss it for soooo long!
ok..this 1!hmmm..she was nicely posing thr!abit tipsy....giving some kadazan's dance pose!actually, mag was outside using a cloth to cover the window behind the fan!then tata was inside helping her to pull...n i caught her, so she was posing posing!XD
i think it's tata's hand!looks like ghost hand, or mayb angel's hand..trying to make the whole thing work out!get the feel 1st...hehehehe!
tat nisha, were always on facebook!ppl busy arranging thr, put in the plug and everything, she nicely onlining beside!and giving her orders!babiii betuuuul...
nah...she was trying to control her laughter becuz i caught her on facebook!and somemore she told she is helping out checking out the songs...XD
tat's out DJ...

when v finally set up everything, it almost 11pm and shaleny haven't come yet!v dance dance dance, suddenly nisha said she feel like going to club!so we called shaleny and ask her!finally around 12 sth, v decided to go!went home change everything and on the way to club...hehehehe!

wat a crazy nite...XD

new pet

2010-08-16T18:49:00.001-07:00

wooo hoooo..

finally...i got a pet!although it's not wat i expected and hope for, but nvm..this 1 will do for now!hehehe..it's a rabbit!it a male rabbit...he is sooooo cute!white mix brown fur...makes me think of cafe au lait pigmentation..coffee mix vanilla!still dunno wat name i should give him!:D

actually this vabbit is given by 1 of my frens..becuz her house has tooo many animals, so she scare her other animal scare her vabbit to death...so she gave it to me!:D

its kind of funny, this vabbit 's butt is in chocolate, and the front part is white..hahahaha!mayb the dad and mum are mix!:D 1 white, 1 brown..so he came out abit cacat-ed...hahahaha!anyway, went and feed him just now...i bet he was hungry...hahahaha!

anyway, this little fella is sooooo cute...i just couldn't resist myself...i kept going out and see him!how i wish i could just sit down beside him and study..hahaha!but if i let him out, it's gona b tough for me to put him back into the cage..cuz he will transform into a monster by then..:D

clubbing

2010-07-23T19:01:00.000-07:00

yday nite was my 1st experienc going to club...i was so nervous be4 tat becuz this is my first time!i told renatz and shalen how scare i m...cuz i heard lots of rumours bout clubbing!they just cool me down and ask me to chill!i still remember both of them telling me tat " dun worry la, just stay v me n shalen"then i told nisha...she said the same thing, stay v renatz and her!then i feel better...then sudenly, i got worried again..i never dance be4!wat if i make a fool out of myself?wat if, i accidentally slipped and fell?wat if this, wat if that?then i told nisha n renatz bout it!they just told me simple answer " dun worry, u come v us, v will jaga u...i can make joel to dance like a monkey even in india, i dun believe u won't dance here, just have a few pax and u r ready to go, trust us!" then i was thinking " ok la, die jau die la..at least have to club once in my life time"

so i arranged my transport, and start getting ready..everyone was excited, except for me..i was scareeeeeeeeeee!then finally the time comes!everybody was so so so shocked to see me, yea wat, my 1st time attending parties like this, my 1st time going clubbing..normally i slp at 10pm!and now, 11sth still haven't slp yet...hahahaha!

v went in..i quickly have a few pax...yay!my capacity haven't reduced yet!still can drink..after a few pax, i got kicked..i start spinning, my body felt light, and i started moving my body...hahahaha!and they know im ready to go...so they pull me to the dance floor...and v dance and dance and dance!hahaha...everybody was joining!seniors, juniors, outsiders!hahaha...some seniors dance damn cute, some seniors dance so girly!hahaha..then only i realise, who cares?as long as u r enjoying v frens!:)

i went to toilet few times....of course!accompanied by frens...hahaha!tat was funny..im not drunk totally..but all of them, held me to the toilet!i just can't walk straight...hahahaha!they were holding me tightly, scare i fell down!hahahaha...anyway, thanks guys!i still can walk ok?dun think im tat drunk...i know my limit!:)

yea, party until 2sth,3 v decided to go home...got a few road blocks after tat!one of my fren din't bring IC, bring driving license only, so she kena..police try to threaten her, enter jail la, denda RM3K la..this la tat la!finally, she din't even pay duit kopi..but i saw her crying!:) anyway, all went well!im waiting for the next 1..to come!:)

an old fren

2010-07-10T22:09:00.000-07:00

this morning around 10am, i got an unknown number calling which 019..i din't pick up the phone cuz i dun recognise the number!but...dunno why i just mesej the number bac and ask who is this which i normally don't do...and surprisingly, it's my old and long lost fren, sab!

she gave me 20mins to wash up and she is bringing me out for breakfast...wat a rush!but i still manage it..then v decided to go oldtown, our favourite spot since last time a-levels!:) v talked and talked in oldtown and v laugh so loud tat everybody look at us but v couldn't b bothered!and i realise 1 thing, last time in a-level, when v r in oldtown, the topic is gossiping lecturers, gossiping bout cute guys, gossiping bout our own relationship..but now, she is a doctor n im a dentist, wat v talked about is.wat kind of patient v've seen..wat type of cases she has ever seen..wat she learned, wat i learned!and all the medical terms came out....ppl changed!:) but v still enjoyed..and laugh all the way thru...

then her bf start calling..and the way she talked has changed!n she told me her prob which has been in her mind for the past 6 months!her bf is cheating on her...and everyone ask her to breakup v him..but i know, no matter wat other ppl say, in the end she still have to decide for herself..she said she's gonna put an end to all her misery..i hope she really make it!cuz she has been crying for the past 6 months!i feel when there's no more trust in a relationship, there's no more love!if u dun trust tat person, there's no point to have a relationship anymore..n she told me "god is great" whenever the bf try to hide sth from her, somehow she manage to find out bits by bits...the more the bf hide, the more she wanna find out..n in the end, it broke her hearts...

yes, i agree god is great, and i believe everything happens for a reason!she find out the truth, it hurts..mayb this is a way tat god try to tell her tat it's time for her to move on..she can find someone better..she dun need to lorry driver to b her husband!she is a future doc with a promising future...she is pretty, she is friendly!i bet she can get a better guy...

so...as a conclusion, god is great, HE will take care things in his own way!we don't need to worry bout a single thing!:)

song tat i should dedicated to my fren...

our god is an awesome god,

he reigns from heaven above

with wisdom, power and love,

our god is an awesome god...

学会放手

2010-07-08T04:08:00.000-07:00

终于，我还是放手了！那天，看到朋友寄的一个片断，学会放手！觉得好适合我！看完以后，就觉得是时候放手了！勉强是没有幸福的！所以，我不再胡思乱想，不再上网等他线，不再期待他会不会回来，不再幻想我们还有没有可能！曾经有人问我，你放得下吗？6年了，真的可以放下吗？我曾经也以为，我放不下！可是，其实，世上无难事，只怕有心人！我学会了放下，因为心太痛了，就自然而然学会放下！就好像我握着一个背，有人倒热水，太热的时候，我就放手了！一样的道理，心太痛，我就放手了！虽然偶尔还会想想他，可是，已经没有像以前那样了！不知道是不是心太痛到麻掉了，所以没有什么特别的感觉！所以。。。。算是，我放手了！也放下了！

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boyfriend is........

2010-06-06T05:14:00.000-07:00

男朋友是：要來欺負的。

但是，普天之下，只有你可以欺負他。然後，你還可以理直氣壯地跟他說：

「我沒欺負你，對不對？快說我沒欺負你！」

男朋友是：要來支持環保的。

你用不完的洗臉奶，面膜，洗頭水，潤膚露和沐浴液都可以塞給他用，那你就可以買過一些新的。

男朋友是：要來減肥的。

你吃不完的菜，他幫你吃。不好吃的，他也幫你吃。那麼，你就可以只吃最好吃的和最喜歡吃的那些。

男朋友是：你有時無法不對他說謊的那個人。

當你的好朋友問你：「你這件大衣好漂亮啊！買了多少錢？要不要３０００塊？」

你會立即翻翻眼皮說：「你想得美！３０００怎麼行？半價也要５０００啊！」

但是，當男朋友說：「你這件大衣好漂亮！」，

你卻會說：「半價才３０００，是不是超值啊！」

男朋友是：要來秤體重的。

當你問他：「我肥不肥？」，他回答說：「肥！你很肥！」，你就知道你不肥。

男朋友是：要來增加自信心的。

當你失意，當你沮喪，當你對自己感到失望的時候，你只想他在身邊。他的一個擁抱，勝過千言萬語。

男朋友是：白天裡，你看到蟑螂，老鼠或任何可怕的小東西都可以大聲喊他。

但是，半夜裡，當你肚子痛得死去活來，你卻會拚命忍受著，捨不得吵醒他。

男朋友是：良心發現的時候要來珍惜的。

有時候，你望著他，會想想自己到底交上什麼好運，會遇上他，會有他這麼愛你。不過，只是「有時候」，其他時候，尤其是生氣和吵架的時候，你會忘了。

男朋友是：用來把你自己貼上去的。

快樂或傷心的時候，有事沒事，你都擁有把自己整個人強橫地貼到他身上去的特權。

男朋友是：你愛他比任何人要多，你有時候卻又好像恨他比任何人都要多。

男朋友是：你把最多的思念留給他，也把最多的眼淚留給他.

圣诞老人

2010-06-05T10:23:00.000-07:00

刚刚和一个朋友谈完天！讲关于圣诞老人。。以前小时候，希望圣诞老人实现我的愿望！整年都作乖乖的一个孩子，就是希望圣诞老人觉得我乖，会赏我礼物！

圣诞老人，使每一个小孩的童话！让不可能年变成可能！我的愿望，是不可能实现的，圣诞老人可以让它实现吗？如果这世界真的有圣诞老人的话。。。刚刚讲过了，我的愿望就好像发梦那样，发梦时，一切的不可能都能变成可能！一旦醒过来，就要回到现实，明知道不可能了，为什么还要勉强呢？哪怕我的愿望，真的需要奇迹吧！

ps：圣诞老人，如果你真的存在的话，我希望你可以实现我的愿望！让不可能的变成可能！

my updates

2010-05-28T04:50:00.000-07:00

scavenger

2010-05-28T04:25:00.000-07:00

today...,my bro told he is at my aunty working place, a furniture shop picking up some still usable furniture..tat's why im in a furniture shop!

tat lady is the boss
tat's my dad, n bro..another guy inside is my cousin!they were checking out the cupboard...
tat is my cousin, squating down examing the stuff...got lots of light bulbs

this is my bro..showing some kungfu stunt!
tat's my aunty and my cousin!she is asking my cousin to pick this n tat...

the 3 guys really got my grandpa gene...scavenger!modern scavenger...ppl recycle newspaper la, metal stuff la...they recycle computer stuff!haiz....they say they wan to collect and go sell it!let's see how much they sell tmml...hahaha!!!

furniture

2010-05-28T03:54:00.000-07:00

due to some reason, i visited a furniture shop...hehehe!my dad and bro were doing their business..so i went around and start taking pic of furniture tat i like the most!hehehe...

i like this dressing table bcuz it show almost whole body...hehehe!love it!yay...next time gonna put it in my own room when i buy my own house...hehe!
i always wanted bed like this..it's special!and to me, it's stylish...yea!hehehe..also will b in my own house..

this sofa looks so cosy...nice to slp!hehehe...example, if my husband make me angry, slp on the sofa...hahaha!cannot enter room...kakaka!so have to buy a cosy sofa...
this is a special shoe cupboard...air circulation, checked!design, checked!function, checked!colour matching, checked!hehehehe...
this tv cabinet, not bad la..but not tat satisfy..hope can find another 1 better!!hehe...
ok...my dad wants to buy a cupboard for me to hang my clothes..he says my clothes is piling up...wan me to find a proper cupboard...it's either this or another 1!personally i like this alot...
this is another 1..but my dad say it's not tat nice....it looks dark!

i can't believe this model still out...i got this study table when i was a kid...i think more than 10 years ladi the design..it's the same design, just the colour darker aldi!my table still at home...standing nicely in my study room...interior design..exactly the same!

this is such a long sofa...can slp 2 person i guess!again....if my husband makes me angry, slp on the sofa...kakakaka!provided pillows..no blanket!

sakae sushi

2010-05-28T03:34:00.000-07:00

today...went to sakae sushi v dad, bro and cousin...hehehe!daddy belanja...yay yay!

this is wat i order...kimuchi ramen!
my all time favourite...inari!sweet beancurd v rice!
this is wat my bro order...haha!he din't expect so small portion..he kept complaining..not full not full!but dad aldi pay the bill...hahaha!bleak...this is my dad...having kimuchi ramen also!hahahaha....it's spicy...but stil can tahan la!

this is my mum favourite..but too bad, she is not here anymore..everytime she sure will take this..and i will b beside yerrrrrrrr!cuz the way she describe this to me is "when u eat it, it will burst inside ur mouth, and all the liquid will melt inside...feel so so so nice!" and i imagine it as yuckzzzz...so until now, still dare not eat!hahahaha...
this is so so so cute..but it's for kids!

love and not love

2010-05-26T05:52:00.000-07:00

爱你的男人会在你睡著的时候抱紧你；

不爱你的男人会在你熟睡的时候出门。

爱你的男人被你打的时候从不还手，第二天会告诉你当时他很委屈；

不爱你的男人常会打得你不敢还手，第二天会告诉你当时他很冲动。

爱你的男人经常陪你一起自驾游；

不爱你的男人经常带你去夜总会。

爱你的男人经常会帮助你做家务；

不爱你的男人只会指使你做家务。

爱你的男人总会知道你想要什么；

不爱你的男人只告诉你他要什么。

爱你的男人会在你洗澡的时候　为你准备一杯水；

不爱你的男人会在你洗完衣服后仍给你一双袜子。

爱你的男人会把自己的积蓄交给你，即使你是个败家女；

不爱你的男人只会给你零用钱，即便你一分也舍不得花。

爱你的男人总想给你父母好印象；

不爱你的男人到你家里像个大爷。

爱你的男人总会经常教你做人；

不爱你的男人只擅于教你做爱。

爱你的男人经常推掉应酬陪你，但从不抱怨；

不爱你的男人会借著应酬躲你，还时常喊累。

爱你的男人时时刻刻想骚扰你；

不爱你的男人需要时候才找你。

爱你的男人会和别人介绍：这是我老婆；

不爱你的男人会同朋友说：这是我女人。

爱你的男人在你面前总像个孩子；

不爱你的男人就是高高在上的爷。

爱你的男人会把你介绍给他的家人；

不爱你的男人会把你介绍给他哥们。

爱你的男人天天都送你上班，接你下班；

不爱你的男人让你送他出门，等他回家。

爱你的男人经常偷看美女时被你抓住；

不爱你的男人总借口出差而出去召妓。

爱你的男人总是很无能；

不爱你的男人都很牛逼。

这是所谓爱情吗？

2010-05-24T08:28:00.000-07:00

不爱就不要选择，爱了就要坚持。

真正的幸福是一点一点争取的，是一天一天积累的。

不要去伤害爱你的人，也不要让你爱的人受伤害。

成熟不是看你的年龄有多大，而是看你的肩膀能挑起多重的责任。

爱一个人要用心，诚心相待，真心交流，恒心相守。

不要计较太多的得与失，感情没有绝对的公平，也没有绝对的对错，要学会用一颗宽容的心包容

对方的缺点与失误。

在一起是一种缘分，真的好珍贵，不要轻易让爱人哭泣伤心，好好珍惜在一起的每一分钟，美好

的回忆应该留给快乐和欢笑。

无论遇到什么事情，不要轻易说分手，不要轻易放弃感情，下一站未必比她好。

相信你的爱人，不要总是怀疑她的诚意，亲密之余给彼此留一点自己的空间。

经常想念对方，哪怕她的坏，设身处地的多为对方着想，永远别让她的面孔变得陌生。

其实每个人一开始都不懂爱情，与爱人一起经历一些事情，

甚至一起经历一些痛苦，才能变得成熟，才会懂得珍惜。

爱了就爱了，永远不要说后悔。只是一定要记住，让相爱的日子多一点欢乐，不要留下遗憾

终于都分手了

2010-05-23T04:19:00.000-07:00

分手的一天终于到了。。没想到我可以很冷静的分析，很冷静的讲完电话，很冷静的去思考，心碎了，没有流泪，没有心痛，只有担心！担心他会不会过得好一点。。没有我的日子，会不会好一点！会不会舒服一点，会不会没有那么折磨。。碧华说的对，这段感情早就应该在拜六那天结束了!为什么自己可以那么的笨，还想说要原谅他。。讲分手的时候，心有痛痛的！因为已经那么久了，突然间要分开，一定会心痛的！可是理智把我拉回现实，我顾不到那么多了！之前，我没讲分手因为我担心他会做傻事，会伤害自己！可是有人告诉我说，这些不应该是我该担心的，这些应该又她父母亲操心。。我只是女朋友！我想了好多好多。。我觉得我太顾虑到别人，没顾虑过我自己的感觉！只想人家开心，自己就好。。可是，原来真的很辛苦。。每次，要顾虑到她父母，他兄妹，他自己。。自己的家人却忽略了！这样对得起妈妈吗？想了想，为什么我对别人可以那么得好，对自己的家人却不好？我被他影响太多，幸好碧华，伟杰，伟忠，表姐把我拉回现实！谢谢他们。。我的生活应该为我自己而活，而不是为了别人！如果有些事情不能改变，就不必勉强了!这样大家都不会得到幸福！这样大家都会觉得辛苦，倒不如早点断了，可以各找各的幸福！

伟雄，在这，我祝福你！我就是曾经陷到太深，我这次对感情很很很认真！所以被爱情弄盲了！不会理智的想清楚到底自己要的是什么。。。好吧，就趁这个机会，看清自己要什么！我祝你快乐，找到一个适合你的女生！

1st year anniversary

2010-05-10T06:12:00.001-07:00

haiz....this is my 1st year without my mum during mother's day...see other ppl so happily enjoying mother's day..buying flowers for their mum, give their mum a great hug...i just look at them, think about my mum...i just wish that she is here!but too bad, god want her back...

thinking back tat day....11.05.09

i was rushing back from india to kl..mum was in HUKM...intubated, unconscious, with supporting management...i touch ground at 430...raymond and xen picked me up at the airport...they were telling me how fiere mum was in the morning...dad called few hundred times to ask us to speed up...bro was still telling it's impossible mum condition worsening...finally reach thr around 615..

they ask me to cal up to my mum...i still saw mum breathing then!after a few seconds, checked her pulse...nth!she was gone...everybody was still calling up for her..told my bro, he was shocked..but he dint cry..but i broke down!i couldn't accept the fact that my mum has already leave!mum's colleague were thr, dad, aunty..everyone!

finally get a hold of myself...manage to listen to my dad instruction..went home and pack some clothes and mum's clothes for her memorial service!thank god...it wasn't jammed at all at that hour although it's suppose to b jammed cuz office hour over...reach home, bro couldn't take it anymore...he was crying and crying and crying..my tears just drop again..pack and cry!couldn't believe the fact tat she is gone..the perfect woman in my life!

im so so so regret tat, i din't wish her happy mother's day during mother's day..cuz i tot wan to wish her the next day when i meet her personally..i tot she still can talk...she still can listen..but everything it's too late...now, no matter how many times i wish her happy mother's day, she won't know it aldi...mum, happy mother's day...and im sorry!:(

第N次

2010-02-22T06:33:00.000-08:00

今天，应该是你第N次讲分手了吧。。你真的觉得我们应该如此吗？如果分手可以让你开心，幸福，我会牺牲掉我唯一的幸福！

跟你在一起，我是世界上最幸福的女生！我自己知道，大家都知道，我爸爸，我弟弟，我表兄弟姐妹，我姑姑，我姑丈，你爸爸，你妈妈，你兄弟姐妹，就连和我没有血缘关系的朋友，都知道我跟你一起开心了很多。。。全世界都知道，为什么只有你不知道？身在福中不知福，这句话真的没错。。所以我跟你在一起，我很珍惜每一刻，每一小时，每一分钟，每一秒。。在你出国之前，我想尽量留下多点回忆。。我不想留下我们吵架的回忆。。所以每次你生气，我都想办法安慰你，因为我不想浪费掉我们的时间。。。我们不多时间在一起。。一个礼拜2，3天。。然后你就要出国了，那时候更加少时间接触到！所以我不想浪费时间吵架。。我只想要跟你甜甜蜜蜜的过剩下的这几个月。。我这个要求，不会过分吧？很难吗这个要求？你以为，只有你一个伤心吗你要出国？我伤心，我不需要通知完整个世界我很伤心因为你要离开了吧！我自己知道我有多么的不舍得你！我自己知道我有多么伤心。。可是，你出国是为了读书，让你的未来更加肯定，所以，我没有办法，只好忍痛，放你走。。我只好一直安慰自己，你出国回来，我们又在一起了。。快快乐乐！唉。。

可能，这些都是我一厢情愿的在想。。。可能，分手比较好？可能，离你远一点比较好？可能。。。。很多可能！好烦。。。想了又想。。。烦啊烦啊！都是那句，如果我违誓，我被雷劈死算了。。。

new cupboard

2010-02-22T00:44:00.001-08:00

just went to econsave to buy a new cupboard...cuz my room is too too messy..hehe!and v have to fix this cupboard on our own...

and wow...i took so long time to fix this things...having a war v this cupboard...haiz!such a simple looking cupboard, but it took me quite long to do this...

this is wat i put on top of the cupboard...hehehe!!nice leh....and that flower, is given by my dear during valentine...kakakaka!!cute leh...of course la, my dear choose 1...haha!!

jammed

2010-02-22T00:40:00.000-08:00

i came back to kl from sitiawan..and it's so so so many cars!somemore jammed in the highway.totally brake!walao...beh tahan...

gu po birthday

2010-02-22T00:23:00.000-08:00

ok..straight to the point!all these pics were taken during my grandpa's sister birthday!80 years old birthday,...and she organise a grand dinner..27tables total!hehehe...

they are singing the song "nothing gonna change my love for u".actually they appoint my dad to sing..but my dad went up the stage, and say..." sorry, i can't sing today...im having sore throat, so sorry.." hahahaha...so these 2 guys have to go up and sing...and they sing halfway, started laughing...
there....2 young boys, and 2 old uncles!my dad and his bro...they stand there, bcum flower pot and start clapping...from wat i see, i think they are drunk, and high aldi...hehe!!cuz they drank quite alot tat nite...too happy i guess!and the 2 young kids, sing and laugh, sing and laugh..haiz!
ok..this is specially for robin pang, my cousin!it's my bro and ur mum's idea...to make u feel jealous!i guess this is ur favourite dish...hahaha!!
all the relative, sons, daughter in law, nephew, bro, sister..all went up and cheers!down stairs, all grandchildren taking pic!hahahaha...from left, yellow shirt(lye), red shirt(shoni)

this is the birthday lady...my grandpa's sister!
this is......uncle george!he looks drunk and high...holding his glas and walking around, finding ppl to.....yam seng!hahahaha...
ok...tat 2 person, is my cousin sister and her bf!posing in front of the camera, which is very far away from me..they caught me taking their pic...hehehe!!pai seh pai seh...shoni acting cool..ah lye has the same sitting style as his dad...hahaha!!
birthday lady went missing..whole table looks empty!birthday lady walking around serving frens...hahaha!!
whole table, full v guys...all big big size!my next table...heheh!!
ok..this is from my table...they are bro and sisters...they are uncle james kids!!hehehe..shy and quiet...

chu 1

2010-02-22T00:16:00.000-08:00

this year chinese new year!it's abit different from the previous 1..hehehe!this year chinese new year, chu 1 is also valentine day!so i divided my day into half..daytime, celebrate v family and my cousins...night time, celebrate valentine v my hamtaro...

so....this is new year eve pics!we went for reunion dinner at aunty tracy house!and this is all the angpau i collected there...

my uncle came back from aus, another uncle came back from shenzhen...hehe!to celebrate new year v us..uncle david from aus brought his 2 kids back, leemei and samuel!
my cousin, raymond mess up the whole place v food...
gamblers...all play RM1 only...hehehe!!all still small kids...

all addicts..haiz!!speechless...tat's my bro, by the way...
the main culprit..my dad!who started all this...he is the banker..he won so much of money!hahahaha..and i took his money to be my capital...kakakaka!the small kid beside him, is the youngest gambler in the family...really family of gambler...!!

random pic

2010-02-22T00:13:00.000-08:00

this pic was taken when im having a webcam session v my hamtaro...hahaha!!

trying to act cool...hehehe!!

this is when he realise im taking pic of him...kakakaka!!
act cool again...speechless...-.-"

2 person world

2010-02-22T00:03:00.000-08:00

hehehe...it's been so long din't post anything up to my blog...so, here goes......

hamtaro came up to penang v his frens on a thursday nite to meet me...bcuz he is having holiday on the friday...

tat nite, when he arrive, i was waiting him downstairs...when he saw me, he just straight away walk up to me...he forgot bout his bags, he forgot bout his frens..he din't take his bags, he din't say goodbye to his frens...from there, i know he is so so so eager to meet me...hahhahaha!

i cook tomyam mee for him and a pot of ABC soup...hehehe!!he say it taste good...i hope it really good, cuz he is going to eat my cookings next time..

PS : bb, no complaints..have to eat!hahahha...

the next day, which is the friday, after my class, v leave back to kl around 2pm..be4 v leave, i fry some nuggets...and v drink champagne..actually is sparkling juice la!hehehe....

a few photos on how hamtaro baby post...hahahaha!!bb, i guess u will faint when u c all this pic...

i dunno wat is he sucking...but looks like he is like a baby sucking the baby stuff..hahaha!!small baby..

this is tat sparkling juice..its' grape flavour!hahaha..looks like red wine..
hamtaro acting cute...hahahaha!
again acting cute...im speechless!too cute, till im speechless...
i think he is damn satisfied..cuz i let him drink...hahahaha!!!

PS : bb...stop laughing...u know wat i say is true..wait till my aunt, my cousins, and my frens sees this...hehehe!!!

toothache

2010-02-07T05:37:00.000-08:00

today was the worst day in my life....my tooth was aching since morning!ouch....it's tat erupting impacted embedded third molar of my right side!stupid...the one with the cute short root...i can't open my mouth big, i can't laugh, i can't do this i can't do tat...i just took bread and drink milk!:(

pityful day..felt the pressure rising inside..the mucous membrane was so so so tense...:( wan to extract it as soon as possible, the earliest can extract also need to wait until 22nd of feb when my college re-open..if go outside extract, sure more than RM200 1...sigh!pain pain...:(

punishment

2010-01-27T04:54:00.000-08:00

everytime u off ur phone or v quarrel until too geng, i will get some punishment from god..maybe im not good enough for u!maybe i dun deserve u...

remember last time u off ur phone, n i din't slp whole nite...the next day, started vomiting and dizziness!it's becuz im tension for the whole nite, when u finally on ur phone, im so relieved but my body still couldn't get use to it..sigh!1st punishment...

just now u off ur phone, or maybe ur phone something wrong...i couldn't get u...my punishment is i din't had anything since morning...maybe this is how god punish me for treating u badly...

nd remember there's once u say breakup, i kneel down for the whole nite, praying...my punishment for not treating u good..sigh!!!

feel loved...

2010-01-26T09:11:00.000-08:00

just now, u told me from now onwards, u will be there to protect me!hamtaro baby will be there to protect me, do u know im very very very touched!i feel so loved...finally, i mean sth in their life..i told u, i got cheated by guys always..one example is kenny and bebee...all this while, i tot they were purely bro and sis..but i din't know they were ex..i feel so hurt when i know the truth, but u told me it's the truth, i have to accept it...i feel im so stupid...why i din't realise it be4, whenever they will touch touch and play v each other hands or face..sigh!!

and when u told me u will be there to protect me, won't let me get hurt anymore...for that moment, i knew i could trust u v my life..i will remember wat u told me tonight!i will keep a distance v guys, i won't trust guys easily, and i will disscuss v u no matter wat happen!and i won't do anything that wil jeopardize our relationship cuz i dunwan to lose u...i wan to be v u!cuz i've aldi trusted u v my life...

*~.:.† Ğůāŗđıāŉ ĂňģėĿ® -Crossing the mortality limit..Doing the impossibles..Reaching GODLIKE†.:.~* says:

*hamtaro is here to protect u anymore

love my hamtaro baby...thanks for loving me so much!!

nah.....i give u my heart now!!*holding heart v bot hands and pass it to hamtaro baby*

Our song

2010-01-24T22:27:00.000-08:00

hmmm..our song!!!never knew i needed by ne-yo

never knew i needed

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)
for the ending of my first begin
and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

(yea...u change my future plan, now my future, there's a pic of u in it!!u accepted wat i m, accepting the good and the bad...and u fill in the missing part of me!when i get lonely, u just fill up my loneliness v ur mesej...dear, i dunwan to lose u, cuz i know i never gonna get u back if i lose u...)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

(i always need u in my life, now or in the future.i dunwan to lose u!u r everything in my life...i love you, the lyrics just tells everything, u r the best person i ever neede to fill up my missing puzzle in my life)

my accidental happily
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

(the way u comfort me?yea...i remember it clearly..tat day i was crying and crying bcuz of wat my dad did, u just comfort me tat easily...v ur cute look!!i just half crying and half laughing, it was ugly...but u told me im damn cute...this got me smiling!!thanks dear for being there whenever i need u...thanks for being the perfect bf for me...in my chapter of life, from now onwards, it's going to be u and me only...)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here always

*(i need u always, i hope u know that...i always needed u, when im sad, when im happy, when im excited...ppl say if u r in love, ur life wil be like sitting roller coaster, ur mood goes up and down...hehe!!when im sad, u cheer my day up, when im happy, u share my hapines, when im excited, i got somebody to share my excitement v, and u will get excited too..tat's why ppl say ppl tat r in love, is abit crazy...hehehe!!!those ppl tat say that, definitely dunno wat is love, and they dunno wat is meant by sharing...)

who'd knew that i'd be here (who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you're the..
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

( u r one that i needed in my life...i wil always love u, and be v u!dun think too much k sometimes, i will always b whr u can c me...love ya!!!)

GOD

2010-01-07T19:43:00.000-08:00

kneeling down for one whole night is definitely not a nice experience!!!sometimes u feel like giving up cuz of the aching knees...it all depends on ur determination!!!last nite, i make a deal v my god...if he can make my hamtaro feel better, i will kneel the whole night...as long as hamtaro will feel better!!!i dunno wat to do anymore tat time...i dunno how to release my tension, i dunno how to release wat i feel..i dunno who to turn to, except for HIM...
for the 1st time after so long, i knelt before HIM and hold my fingers tight together and close my eyes and pray!!!"Heavenly father, i know u r somewhr up there...and i know u r listening to my prayers now..if u can hear me, please comfort alex's heart...please help him!!please lend him ur wisdom so that he can go thru all his problems, please give him the courage that he need to go thru all the difficulties in his life...he needs U just as much as i need U now..i know his heart is broken into pieces, please heal him!!!im begging U...i'll kneel whole nite and keep on praying until he feels better...please give him the comfort just like how u give me and my mum whenever v r in trouble!!please...im begging U..In the name of jesus christ, amen!!"
after i pray...i cried!!if i leave and can make u feel better, i will leave...but i know now, u need me!!!im sorry for not being there....

CARRIED AWAY

2010-01-07T18:48:00.000-08:00

in a relationship....v have to be ourselves, then only the relationship will work out!!!all this things, i know how to tell the others when they are asking for advice...but when it comes to me, only i realise..it's hard to actually being our true self!!sometimes, v tend to show more of our own good points than our bad points!!!v try to impress our another half by just giving good impression or showing good points!!!tat's a big mistakes...wat makes us say our another half?our husband, our bf is our another half!!it's aldi part of us...tat's why v claim it as our another half!!our another half that can complete our incomplete life...since he is my another half, he should know the good and bad bout me!!!i shouldn't be hiding it away from him...it's my bad!!!sigh...i din't realise it until yday someone reminded me...the conversation goes
A : I tot u r suppose to be urself in front of him?
B: Yea, im being myself...
A : being urself?being urself means showing good and bad..but from the things u told me, u only show good side...whr's ur bad side?if u din't show ur bad side, how is he going to be ur another half?i think u keep on focussing on ur good side until u make urself believe that it's ur true self...but u were directed away!!!
I was shocked...my mind got drift away!!!i admit i was focussing too much in showing my good self!!and eventually, i forgot that im actually purposely hiding my bad self!!!SHIT.....
my bad side?i remember once, i feel like burst out laughing..laughing my lungs out of something my hamtaro did...i just cannot tahan!!but trying to give him good impression...i tahan!!!i keep on breathing hard...i try to concentrate on other things instead of concentrating on watever he is doing..cuz if not, i will start laughing...and i almost choked becuz i was controling so hard!!!
now i realise, if i wan to laugh, i jsut laugh;if i wan to cry, i will hug him and cry..if he is really my mr.right, he will accept watever i m..no matter how ugly i look when i laugh out loud or im crying...how i hold my tummy and start laughing...or how my mucus start dripping on his clothes when im crying...this is my true self!!!being own true self is always the best...but i got directed away...

TO: HAMTARO....
im sorry, my hamtaro...i should've realise this long time back!!!im sorry tat i got carried away...im sorry for everything!!!im sorry tat i make myself to belive it's my true self when u r around!!!im so sorry...will u forgive cicak?

CICAK

the tie....

2009-12-28T02:52:00.001-08:00

few days back was christmas....this year, i had a great christmas, cuz this year, im celebrating christmas with my beloved bf!!hehehe...my christmas present?it's a RING!!!it's not a normal ring...it's a ring that tie both our hearts together!!!hehehe...i never wore a ring be4, and i din't plan to wear one until i find a right one..bcuz a ring has a very very very important meaning!!!a ring at both couples fingers means a bond btw both of them...hehe!!!

but this christmas, i got a ring from my bf....i just wear it without hesitation!!!means.....................he is my mr.right?kakakaka....i wish he would be happy for every christmas!!and my christmas wish..........i hope my family are all healthy and i wish tat i could celebrate christmas with my bf for the rest of my life...!!and another half of my wish, i wish my bf wish comes true!!!hehehe....

雨过，一定会天晴

2009-12-16T01:00:00.000-08:00

刚刚和宝贝男朋友吵完架!!!昨晚真的吵到很厉害。。。以为这次肯定完蛋了!!!又不接电话，又不回短讯!!昨晚整晚睡不着。。。翻来覆去，一直想怎么办，怎样搞定!!唉。。想了整晚，最后就熬出病了。。那是，就晕晕沉沉的睡着了!!睡了，又醒了。。。整晚，没睡到!!

直到今天下午，突然间，我的宝贝男朋友问我我在哪里。。那时，应该是=我笑最开心的时候吧。。。甜甜的一笑，才知道，原来我宝贝还是紧张我的。。。只是变现错得方式而已!!!嘻嘻。。。雨过天晴，真的是太好了。。。哈哈哈!!!

crazy stuff

2009-12-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

phew...just came back from kl!!!so tired.....within 24hours, drove from penang to kl and drove back to penang again!!!whose fault is this?my monkey fault.....hahahaha!!!anyway, i feel worth it after seeing my monkey so happy...hahaha!!!

my monkey were bad mood yesterday..the whole day!!!after asking and asking and asking, finally found out the problem!!!the problem is v one of my blog post...that blog post talking bout my ex!!!tat affects him alot..and he start to get moody...sigh!!!my bad...if i have deleted the post just like wat my ex said, all this wouldn't be happening...

anyway, after consulting my housemate, i decided to go back kl to surprise my monkey...but he got sources from someone telling him im going back kl..so not consider surprise lo!!!hehehhe...when i met him, i feel alot better and calm....at least i can comfort face to face and i can make him feel better!!!hehehehehe....love my monkey so much!!can't bear to let him sad on his own....kekekekez!!!

meeting parent

2009-12-07T14:50:00.000-08:00

this is the 1st time im meeting my bf parent...i mean this is the 1st time, meeting someone's parent..last time pak tor, i never met any of the parent..cuz not long enough or dun wan to meet their parent...this time, i met wai hoong's parent!!!kekekekez...

saturday nite, after the gala nite, i persuade wai hoong to come to penang to find me!!kekekkez..and he came!when he reach here it's around 2.30am...after bath and cuddling each other at the balcony, and when v decided to slp, it's aldi 3am...the next morning hae to wake up early to go and send my car for service somemore!!!haiz.....

next morning, around 6sth, the dad called..asking whr is he!why he din't come back and slp..this and tat!!the dad doesn't know he comes to penang..kakakka!!then he start explaining...for every1 hour, the dad called and asked whr is he, wat time is he coming home!!around 8sth, the dad called again and ask him to bring his gf home for dinner..tat time we were in shocked cuz v r in penang, how to go back kl..and it's abit ridiculous to go back kl just for 1 dinner...so my bf were thinking of an excuse for not going back for that dinner...i think he din't manage to think of 1...and he start emo!!kakakaka...

when i see him emo, i decided to follow him back to kl just for the dinner..but of course i can't stay at home...so v drove back!!along the way, theres lots of obstacles...heavy traffic, heavy rain..accident, ppl kepoh this and tat..we were so worried tat v can't make it and the parent will start to be suspicious...haha!!!but thank god, v reach the restaurant earlier than the parent....

when v met, both side were so shy....everybody were smilling only!!!hehehe...then the dad start the conversation, he asked bout my studies, my bro's studies, my family background...bout my dad, bout my mum..and it sems tat his dad were very satisfied with all of my replies...kekekekez!!then after dinner, v went back to wai hoong's house...the mum told tat i can stay at their house...ahhaha!!!after bath, the sis pull us out for yam cha again..went to look out point!!the sis were asking how v met, how v start..all our love story!!but that wai hoong, just twist and turn the whole story..but who cares!!hahahaha...cuz our love story is kind of weird....nobody will trust or believe and they will be in shocked if they know it!!better dun tell...haha!!

around 12am, v went back home..im too tired so i slept straight away when my head just touch the pillow..and i got a good night kiss!!!hahahaha...

the next morning, i woke up around 7sth..the parent were shocked to see me waking up so early...after tat, the mum brought me out to buy breakfast for the family..v chit chat in the car!!!then, me, his dad, his bro and mum all together sat on the table and had breakfast...hehe!!we chit chat again..finally the dad and the bro went to work!!so left me and his mum awake..the other 3 still slping like pig...kakakaka!!v chit chat and chit chat..tat's so much things to talk about...maybe v r gals!!!around 10sth, i went up and woke wai hoong up and chase him to class..but i bet he dun have any mood to concentrate in class!!hahaha..whn around 2sth, we plan to go for lunch, wai hoong called back and tell tat he is coming home....he is coming home damn early...kakakaka!!only he himself know why....after lunch, i came back, bath and start packing to go puduraya..i guess wai hoong must be feeling sad..he doesn't talk much!!!i took a 5.30pm bus back to penang!!!

没信心

2009-12-04T23:22:00.000-08:00

今天应该是最难熬的一天吧。。。以前的感觉又回来了！！那种很没有安全感，很没有信心，很懦弱，很怕的感觉又来了。。。唉！！！烦啊。。。

为什么每次我都会遇到同样的事情？以为这次应该会顺顺利利。。可是没想到，我越认真，就搞得越砸。。。应该是我的问题吧。。。唉！！！

moh liu

2009-11-20T02:00:00.000-08:00

today, it is suppose to be my general hospital posting from 2pm to 5pm...after that, im suppose to go to gurney plaza for movie with my fren, syazzy and renata...all the suppose turns out totally different...

syazzy parent suddenly came...v cancel our movie plan!!!

when on the way to general hospital, i took the wrong turning and was damn late for class...so me and my housemate ended up going to gurney plaza...both of us have no idea whr is that damn gurney plaza...which direction, which part...totally no idea!!so v just simply drive!!!took so many wrong turning..and finally v saw persiaran gurney...phew!!!

keep on follow the direction and finally......we reached!!!

gurney plaza...................is meant for rich ppl!!!sigh...and we saw some band competition...

there were so many buses from 4 different state!!!

i dunno this band come from wat state, but the song they played were damn nice...
1st song...何日群再来
2nd song...can u feel the love tonight?from lion king...

after mcd ice cream, we went back home....haiz!!!i feel v so moh liu...

GOBI

2009-11-16T15:06:00.000-08:00

after sending off my cousin to KL sentral, me and my bro plan to have dinner..we were discussing and discussing..cuz we dunno where to go for dinner!!!somemore it's raining outside...our choice were, bangsar, yulek, damansara, etc..suddenly i just suggest this shop, which is in pandan indah...

when my mum was still here, we always visited this shop..mum likes the environment here!!she say it's comfortable and special...hehe!!although the food is nt that nice...she is litat kind of person, environment of the cafe comes first...hehe!!!!

so we went...tat shop is still there..i can't believe it!!for 2,3 years i din't visit that place aldi...the shop name is GOBI....

the shop special chair..made of rotan, and hang in on the ceiling!!!so the swing chair...hehe!!
c how big is the spoon...haha!!!i order tomyam mee hoon v chicken...i can't finish it!!!hehe....actually not tat nice also...okok only!!!but it's too spicy, no sour taste..tomyam suppose to be sour and spicy..i think i can cook better...kakakaka!!!

sigh...miss mummy...

cute tooth

2009-11-05T03:23:00.000-08:00

chief complaint : patient feel weird taste at the lower right region of the oral cavity

history of presenting illnes : the taste started few weeks ago...non tender on percussion, no swelling, no pain, no fever

extra-oral examination : NAB

intra-oral examination : 48 - impacted, unerupted...
37 - decayed...

radiograph show 48 impacted...

this is my 3rd molar radiograph...also known as wisdom tooth...few weeks ago, i felt something weird taste in my mouth when my tongue is around that region..so yday, couldn't tahan it anymore, went and do a check up...i knew it, my wisdom tooth erupt halfway only..so went and took radiograph...

it came out showing my tooth grow wrong direction and the root is not formed completely..it turns out to be having big crown and small root...damn cute!!tat's what the seniors say...cute tooth!!!haha...

but i think need to extract this tooth..but dun worry, i will keep it well!!!safe and sound in hydrogen peroxide...haha!!!

it's been so long...

2009-10-30T00:29:00.000-07:00

wow...it's been so long after my last post!!!finally, blogging time!!!never expect will write again here...here goes..

it's been 2 years in india...india was a great experience!!everything in india is just so much to learn..learn bout the people, learn bout the culture, tradition, manners, respect...so much more!!!i appreciate malaysia more after being to india...there's nothing in india, but there's everything in malaysia...people always ask me, how can u survive in india?maybe becuz i look like those "princess" that cannot survive in those place..but i did survived, for 2 years...that's not a very short time!!but not long enough...it's easy to survive in india, just dun expect it to be like malaysia..

i get to know a lot of frens in india....kaku, bicky, suraj, shrawan, chris, manoj, schubangkar, kishore, derminder, anishya, kathy....so many more!!!of course, they are all still in india, but i will miss them alot...they taught me alot!!!

so now...im in penang, enjoying my penang life!!!it's kind of stress and tension..but there's alot to learn!!everyday is an exciting day...especially in departments!!!phew.....

PIDC CUP

2008-10-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

so long din't blog aldi looo...

OK...here v goes..last saturday is my PIDC CUP opening ceremony!!!there are some pics...

this is our flag...on top of the flag that "YELLOW" word is i paint 1..nice leh?haha...it's good that my mum send me for drawing class since young..thanx mum!!!kakaka...so bergaya leh..my team punya flag!!!my team is "YELLOW PHOENIX"
this are my teammates..on the left is michelle, right is yee sim..on top is ah boy!!!that ah boy is damn cute la...he alwiz makes me laugh during cheer practice..damn cute!!!

this is also my batchmates but not my teammates..he is kryptonite captain, khoo lee kian!!!he is a funny guy.sometimes quite crazy!!!hehe...
this is one of my batchmates, which is also my teammates..kok say kuen!!!he is a funny guy, i can say!!!and sometimes cute...haha!!!this is dharshini naidu...my junior!!!she is from the 5th batch while im in the 4th batch..she is also another cute gal la..but i heard her bf damn handsome la..she is a chindian...

this is a puppet show present by our senior, 3rd batch...they have 2 person as a pair...the person behind become the hand for the puppet..while the person in front become the leg for the puppet..needs so much of practice and coordination..it's so successful...
this is renata...one of my friend!!!she is in the red demon team..that's why she is wearing red clothes!!!hehe...they won the cheer becuz their cheer is much more cuter than ours...hehe@!!!anyway we enjoy very much...
this is my teammates la..i know some of them is wearing green shirt , which is kryptonite team..but this is becuz they change clothes v other teams...haha!!!
these are the 4 teams that are going to compete with each other...yellow phoenix, green kryptonite, red demon and blue shark..hehe!!!
this is my pic..im in yellow phoenix team but i wear a red demon horns...that's sunisha behind me!!looking quite shock...kakakaka!!!this is the pic we took together...i can't whr m i ...haha!!!maybe im not in this pic also la..kakaka!!!no one knows...

my pic

2008-10-22T06:19:00.000-07:00

meaningful...

2008-10-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

my seniors

2008-10-15T11:57:00.000-07:00

today...when i went for class, heard a shocking news from one of my friends....i got to know that one of my senior slam d door in front of the lecturer yesterday...wat a shocking news!!!cuz i know that malaysians are trained to respect the lecturer and someone elder than us...

so i duno whose fault is that...the lecturer din't approve the model that the gal did...so the gal went back to her place to re-do again the whole thing..it was not an easy job!!!then the lecturer called the gal..but the class was too noisy and too big..so the gal din't hear anything and din't answer the lecturer..so the lecturer called twice!!!

during the 3rd time, the lecturer cannot tahan and scolded her...he scolded her " are you deaf?"..when the gal heard it, she walked out and slam the door...

so today, she kena disciplinary action from our principle..all the lecturer from the department went for a meeting with the principle and discuss this matter...i think after this, all our life will not be easy la..sigh!!!pitiful...

i was wondering why the gal cannot bersabar abit?sigh........

感触

2008-10-06T06:48:00.000-07:00

刚刚读了朋友的部落各，有些感触。。所以就开始写了自己的感想！！！其实我那位朋友是我上a-level时，同班的。。她和一位也是同班的男同学开始在一起！！他们去到哪里都很亲密，有时会让人受不了。。可是没办法，他们的自由！

可是，今天，当我读到她的部落各的时候，我替她觉得伤心，也替她感到开心。。因为她终于看到那个男生的真面目。。。伤心，因为我了解到分手时一定会伤心。。我替她开心是因为她甩掉了一个坏男人。。。当我读完她的部落各时，我觉得那个男生很没用。。。可是没办法，不是每个男生都是那么的好。。所以说，现在要找一个好男人已经很难了。。。绝种了！！

Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but to hold on!

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'

我觉得这些都很有意思。。。可是有哪个男生是做到全部的？应该很难找到吧。。。哎！！！

Trip to Yercaud

2008-09-14T13:56:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, my friends organize a class trip to Yercaud. It's a hill station. So it's very cooling...Actually I expected something like Cameron or Genting Highland...But when i went up, it such a cold cold place when the wind is blowing...I cannot tahan, so i borrow Tata's sweater...Hehe!!

And I bang my head on the wall when I visited a temple..It's a Hindi temple...I think God is trying to warn me not to receive any prayers from Hindus..hehe!!!God is great...hehe!!!

This is a few picture I taken from my phone.. The scenery is super nice....it's super cooling..and i feel calm when i see all this...
This is Renata..my classmates..She is from Sabah!!!She say Kundasang and Ranau is almost the same like that..and she aldi get use to the whether there..That's why she is wearing litat..hehe!!!
Me and Renata...We took this picture in a small pondok!!!hehe..the wind was so strong that time...
Syazana and me...
We saw lots of monkey there...These are called long tailed monkey...They have long tail...When I took this picture, the monkey was sitting at the border of the brick...And the place where it sit is so high..So scare if it drop!!!hehe..But the monkey there were all so cute...They sems like know we are going to take their picture...so they just sit there quietly and let us take their picture...But sometimes they will show some cute pose...haha!!!
After that,we went for boat pedalling..hehe!!!It was a tiring day...sigh!!!But I enjoy myself very much...hehe!!!
Yercaud were 3 hours away from Salam town..So it's the nearest place we can visit next time...haha!!!

Anu mdm's wedding

2008-07-10T05:40:00.000-07:00

this is wedding between my lecturer and her husband...hehe!!!
this is the place we went for wedding...hehe!!!it's a very grand place..they decorate the place v alot of light bulb..very very very nice...
this is the lecturer and her husband...hehe!!!
from left : syazana, magdeline, sunisha, anu mdm, her husband, shaleny, barathy and renata...
im outside waiting for the 2nd round...kekekekez!!!

this is jassbiante...another of my batchmates...hehe!!!
family pic again..both white and pink in the center
this is renata and magdeline..and they are roommates..hehe!!!both wearing white..white angel!!!kakaka...

this is me...my eyes looks swallen right?kekekekekez....
this is renata atalya...she looks elegant that night...looks sweet also...but still our mummy sweeter..kakakaka!!!
this is syazana...that night, she looks so sweet by wearing pink colour...hehe!!!i also got 1 pink colour punjabi suit..

family pic again..im the 1 holding the camera...hehe!!!
this is my another sis, magdeline marai francis!!!she looks like typical indian that night..but looks super nice and gentle type of gals..i like her dressing that night...she gives me a feeling of friendliness...hehe!!!that's my sister...
family photo....hehe!!!oops, miss out mag..another sis!!!

from left : syazana (mummy), me, renata (sis)

everybody were very pretty that night...hehe!!!

start from the left : renata, syazana, shih shuan

xiao shuan : the cutest person in my class...hehe!!!she dun like us to call her cute...

syazana : my mummy..cuz she alwiz nag me...

renata : my sis...cuz v alwiz hang out together..she is from sabah...

this is wilson...he is not from my batch...he is from the pervious batch!!!he is a friendly guy...he is the best person u can find in PIDC...hehe!!!

this is my batchmates..of course just half of it la!!!v bought a present for our lecturer...which is a birthstone earring..it's a transparent stone..and it's super nice!!!cost us 4500rupees...hehe!!!but i like the earring la...

this is 1 of my classmate...his name is jianhan!!!we call him za bo han..cuz he is very kepoh like gal..hehe!!!n he alwiz mix v gals..he mix v gals more than he mix v guys..hehe!!!

new member

2008-07-10T01:49:00.000-07:00

let me introduce u to the new member of our big family..that small dog name is mocha!!!hehe...does he looks innocent also?hehe...
is this dog cute?

my tooth carving

2008-07-10T01:36:00.000-07:00

this is wat i learned for the past 1 year...when starting to carve the tooth, i really hate it...cuz my tooth carving is very bad..doesn't looks like a tooth..looks like a spoon more!!!but now i think it's ok aldi...i realise something from this..v have to put our heart in doing everything...especially tooth carving...u need ur concentration, patience and determination..hehe!!! there's 28tooth here...labelled using FDI system...
me and my friends tooth carving sample....syazana and renata..!!!ehe....everybody's so hapy to pass up all their tooth..cuz it's our hasil usaha for 1 year...hehe

Friends...

2008-06-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

last time long ago, i read amama's blog about friends...she say there's alot of type of friends around us!!!last time i dun understand, now i understand

around us, there's alot type of friends..some friends are those that just for fun, some friends are friends that only wan advantage...some friends are really helping and good friends...i have all kinds of friends around me...those that treat me good, those that wan advantage, and some just hi-bye friends....i really learn alot of lesson here!!!this makes me grow up alot more than i think...hehe!!!

but i still think my secondary friend was the best la..i love secondary old days la!!!i miss it so much..sigh!!!

just finish my internal assessment

2008-06-25T05:57:00.000-07:00

today, i just finish my internal assessment....it was a relieved after that!!!i was studying so hard for the past few days just for my internal assessment..

today is my last paper(oral biology)..i did quiet badly for my oral biology for the 1st internal assessment...i hope this time i can get a better marks...i really wan to see after so hard i try to understand this subject and try to remember the points for this subject, how much marks i can get..and how far i can go v my memory...hehe!!!

not to say biochemistry, it was the subject that have to memorize deadly...and reach exam hall just vomit everythig out..i hate memorizing la...but if i hate the subject, i couldn't have study well..so as a conclusion,i have to love the subject...sigh!!!

about physiology, im still ok v it...for anatomy, i still ok v it...at least i understand the concept of the whole subject..how o study it, how to memorize it..it's easy after i catch the concept of studying that particular subject..hehe!!

after my last paper at 30th of june, after 7 days,my model exam coming again..sigh!!!Stress-nya.....

dog show

2008-06-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

last 2 weeks i went to a dog show v my friends....these a few pics i took from there...

my pic
sunisha
shaleny

my room...

2008-06-07T09:11:00.000-07:00

this is a few pic from my new room...hehe!!! this is my study table...it's alot cleaner and tidier than my study table in malaysia...haha!!!
this is the cupboard ontop of my study table whr i put all my text book and practical book
this is a paper i put beside my study table..if thr's any memo, i just stick thr so tat i can remember anything..easy right?
this is me n my roommate's bed...we joined it together so tat it looks alot spacious in our room...hehe!!!my 3 teddy bears!!!
my 3 teddy bears...2 dogs and 1 big bear..hehe!!!saw the love shape clock thr?it got mickey mouse pic as background..and the name joann thr?
my fren, magdeline do it for me..hehe!!!she is super cool in drawing and colouring la...nice ncie!!!

that's my roommate study table...hehe!!!with 3 of my teddy bear...all 3 given by my best friends!!!kekekez....

the table u see is a place for me and my roommate to put our plates, forks and spoon, rice cooker...all our cooking utensils lo!!!
that cloth cover part actually is a cabinet behind..but it looks like a door to some secret room right?kekekekez...and beside is our dressing table..with a super long mirror...hehe!!!
this is whr i put all my earrings...creative?

that's all la...

my picture....

2008-06-01T05:20:00.000-07:00

fantastic experience

2008-05-30T06:11:00.000-07:00

last sunday was the fantastic experience i have in my whole life....I GOT CHASE BY A COW!!!

what happen last sunday?that day, i follow my friends to a basketball court behind our college to play basketball...as normal, i dun play..i just stand thr and watch and cheer only!!!so they play till 7pm only decided to go home..our gang was the last to walk back home...the guys were walking at the other end...

me n sunisha was walking in front of tata, shaleny and syazana...suddenly nisha was telling me :" c, the mad cow running like mad la.."after she finish saying tat, the cow was running towards us already..we were all so panic!!!nisha ran back..n when i wanted to run, i heard someone shouting dun run dun run..so i stood thr...i think it was 50m away from me..im standing in the middle of sunisha and the cow..somemore im wearing red clothes...the guys saw us chase by the cow..and they were standing thr and laughing..

suddenly all of us scream...it was so loud!!!then the owner of the cow came and chase the cow away..the cow turn and went to the opposite direction and chase the guys..the guys din't even look..they start running and screaming...we were laughing thr!!!

after tat sunisha said " gals are braver than guys...bcuz v gals face the cow and then we scream...those guys, they din't even see properly...they start running and screaming till their lungs get sore"hahahahaha...

but that was a great experience la...hehehe!!!

2008-05-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

today, we were celebrating Lee Kian and Kah Chit birthday...and they are having a birthday party!!!they rent the amplifier, rent this rent tat..hehe!!!and Lee Kian sponsor free flow of "drink"hehe....

here is the pic whr Kah Chit is blowing his cake...we bought 3 cakes all together!!!2 for Lee Kian, our beloved classmate and 1 for Kah Chit...hehe!!!

then the party starts..but too bad, yesterday was raining heavily be4 the party starts, that's why the floor was all wet..when party is going on, it was still drizzling...so it's kinda windy and cooling!!!then we went to get drinks..kekekez!!!kingfisher, blacklabel and signature..3 types of "drink"

then they start playing games la...every representatives from each batch much drink and dance!!!kekekez...my batch is shaleny and shreen...shreen can't dance so she just drink..hehe!!!3rd batch is louis and niba!!!after they drink, Louis got drunk...and she was crapping when she was brought back to her room, which she resist be4 tat!!!kekekekez...

after tat, they start the dance floor la!!!but nobody wan to dance, bcuz there's too many ppl, everybody feel shy...all of them feel like they are in the zoo...everybody was looking!!

when it's around 1 sth, to 2sth...when there's not many ppl, my frens start dancing la!!!and by tat time, me and shreen was sitting and chit chatting!!!there's one of my fren, SayKuen, brought us black label, which is a type of whiski, and make us to drink!!!kakaka...but i think he got drunk 1st..cuz after tat, he was flirting v both of us!!!

after a while, there's another korean guy also came...and keep on feeding us with pure Black label...haha!!but v both are still ok..that korean guy pulak K.O. aldi...kakakakaka!!!and Say Kuan went around carrying ppl..he is totally drunk i guess...

Another guy, Arthur, he was so drunk tat he vomited around...haiz!!!and Wilson, i dunno whether he is high or drunk, he was dancing around!!!hahaha...Shreen said, she likes to see when there's drunkards around..me too la!!!they will do some funny stuff!!!hahahaha...so funny yesterday...although me and shreen drink alot, but we are still ok..we still can stand thr and chit chat!!!

and we chit chat till 5am!!!goodness...haha!!!

here's the pic of my frens :

sunisha, syazana, shaleny, renata

this is sharmini and magdeline..sharmini is our PIDC dancing queen!!!super nice la her dancing...hehe!!!and she is super funny...

sandstorm

2008-05-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

today, I went to town with my 3 frens...we go to town bcuz :

1. buy birthday present for Lee Kian
2. get some groceries
3. go for dental checkup

on the way to town, suddenly there's strong wind start blowing....and we can see the sand start flying around, plastic bags start flying around...the wind is strong till the view bcame so blur...super scary la!!!

i saw a few man tat rides the bicycle got to stop by the road side, and wait for the wind to stop...the wind is so strong till they can't ride their bicycle...scary la wei!!!i kept on ask my fren, shaleny.

Me : are we seriously getting down from the bus later?

Shaleny : haiz...i also dunno la!!!

Me : look at the sand flying around...scary la!!!In the bus is safer la....somemore it's starting to rain

Shaleny : Ya la wei...c 1st la!!!

after tat, i concentrate on the road again...it's super scary la the view!!!

i din't take any pic cuz i was on the bus...the bus is moving, so i can't take it clearly...

ppl pee on the sad in india, and now the sand is flying around...sigh!!!come back really must scrub my whole body,especially my face..sigh!!!

my roommate birthday

2008-05-02T08:35:00.000-07:00

30.04.08 (wednesday)

tml is my roommate birthday....kind of looking forward to it!!!maybe bcuz there's cake for her birthday...it's been so long since i last ate a piece of cake!!!hehe..tat time go back malaysia, forget to eat...kakakakaka!!!

in the evening, after my class, i went to the library to draw her a birthday card...but ended up drawing a banner i guess...written thr "Happy Birthday, Bernadette"I hope my colouring technique haven't fade yet...hehe!!!

This is the pic of it...

then after finish drawing and finish revising my studies, i decide to go back to check up whr is my roommate..when i reach home, i found out tat she went to town aldi...she brought along her schoolbag...which might means tat she is staying over in her bf house!!!i went to tell sharon bout this...they were quite disappointed, cuz we plan to sing birthday song tonight...

finally, we decided to sing on thursday night...

01.03.08(Thursday)

Today is my roommate birthday..at midnight 12am, i send her a mesej wishing her happy birthday...tonight, im slping alone..cuz she is over at her bf house..oh well, nvm, i enjoy the air-cond alone la..hehe!!!

whole day i was studying, studying,studying while waiting for her to come back...

finally, at around 9pm, she arrive!!!sharon and niba went to the fridge to take the cake, and they gave her a surprise...i was quite shocked too cuz i din't expect them to sing at this time, this hour...im almost half aslp when they sing for her!!!hehe...after sing song, my roommate cut the cake and start distributing...the cake was ok, but no doubt, malaysia is better!!! I MISS MALAYSIA...sob sob!!!

sorry, i din't take any pic...cuz was too excited with the singing and cutting cake ceremony...haha!!!

after tat, i chit chat v her till around 12 sth only slp...kekekez!!!tml got class test somemore, but i prepared aldi..so it's ok la!!!

kekekekekekez

stupid connection and stupid laptop

2008-04-29T13:14:00.000-07:00

sigh..i dunnno wat's wrong v this laptop and wat's wrong v the connection here..this few days, connection sux!!!somemore my D-LINK keep on resetting...on and off, on and off,tak berhenti-henti...almost make me vomit blood ar trying to connect to internet!!!

so today, i so good mood, try to uninstall it, and install the D-link driver again...oh my god, after isntalling again, there's so many problem occuring!!!while re-checking and re-checking, i slept off...haha!!!too tired aldi....

but when i woke up again at around 1.30am, finally the connection is better....i can on9 but still on and off..stupid connection!!!I WAN A NEW LAPTOP...stupid laptop and stupid connection!!!

dah la, the connection here sux, somemore now with this stupid laptop, this will even make the stupid condition worst...sigh!!!i hate it...

nice scene

2008-04-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

see the dog on the chair?i found this view super cute la...so cannot tahan, then i take this pic...i think one of the JPA student washes her doggie, and dry it outside!!!hmmmmm....it's a good way to get it dry...kekekez!!!maybe i should try it on my dog...both dog!!!kakakaka...

the dog is super cute la...kawaiiii....

farewell party

2008-04-26T20:27:00.000-07:00

yesterday i went to town v my friends to attend a farewell party for a friend, Yap Lay Keat. She is going to discontinue in this course already bcuz she is not interested in this course. Sigh...

So yesterday we went to town la, the 8 of us again!!!They told us 7.30pm sharp dinnner...OK, fine, v reach thr at 7.30pm after going to Shevaroys to get some groceries...When we reach there, no one was there...and we thought we were early. So it's ok!!So we sat down and order our food stuff la, and chit chat.

When our food arrive, we start eating. But still, no one turn up yet...Around 8pm, we called our class rep, Teh Ji Wi, to ask wat time is the dinner exactly. He say :"Oh, v postpone it to 8.30pm aldi"!@#$%^&*() we purposely slow down our eating speed to wait till 8.30pm..But still no one turn up.

After v pay our bill, we just went off. I guess all of us are quite irritated. We went to naidu hall to buy some stuff. I got my mum a mother's day card. I hope she like it. When we were lepaking at the book store, we saw our other batchmates. They were shopping in naidu hall too. That's our conversation.

J.H. : Eh, how come u guys also here?
B.S. : Eh, how come u guys also here?not going for the dinner?
J.H. : going...later la!!!U guys?
B.S. : we aldi had our dinner at 7.30pm. We waited for u guys since 7.30pm to 8.30pm but no one turn up so we had our farewell party on our own.
J.H. : oic..so where are you guys going later?
B.S. : home...

tat time was 9.45pm. Luckily we din't wait for them to have our dinner together. If not, by 10pm, still no dinner for us. And that class rep said 8.30pm, but it's 9.45pm aldi...sigh!!!our class management is super lousy la...but anyway, v bought all our stuff, enjoy ourself, then we go home...kakakakaka!!!

No farewell party...

Nice quotes

2008-04-26T11:28:00.000-07:00

These are a few of nice quotes that i got from a bookshop.

1st - Dreams carry us up 2 the places we'd most like 2 b.

2nd - Our feet are earthbound, but our hearts and our minds have wings, listen to your heart and you'll fly.

3rd - No mountain is too high 2 climb, no sea is too deep 2 dive, no dream is too distant 2 achineve, only if you believe

4th - The way you blend your efforts with hard work and high confidence, only a note of good luck is needed to turn them into reality

5th - A dad brings strength and stability to the family and a feeling of security 2 life. He gives you a sense of values and self worth, and a found of love 2 last a life time.

6th - I may not tell you as often as I should but it's a feeling i carry in my heart constantly. When things get difficult, you lighten the load v your help, understanding and support. U alwiz wish only the best for me and ur selflessness n encouragement inspire me.

7th - The wolrd is like a mirror relfecting back to you, watever u've given it, watever is your view, so if you thoughts are happy, and a smile is on ur face, u'll find the world is a beautiful, a warn and happy place.

a few nice quotes for mother's day

2008-04-26T11:22:00.000-07:00

1st- Because you inspire me, I dream. Because you believe in me, I try. Because youw ish for me, I achieve. For everything good in me, I honor you

2nd - Follow your dream. Take 1 step at a time and don't settle for less, just continue 2 climb. Follow you dream. If you stumble, don't stop and lose sight of you goal, press on 2 the top. 1 only on top can we see the whole view, can we see wat we've done and wat we can do, can we then have the vision 2 seek something new. Press on and follow your dream

3rd - You've given me unending strength, support and encouragement alwiz and loving advice tat i'll never stop needing. I often wish there were some way I could give you even half the love u've given me.

4th - First glimpsed love in you face, 1st heard it in your voice, 1st felt it in your arms. Back then, I didn't know how lucky I was. Only with time have I even begun 2 realise it and with everyday that passes, I understand a little better how blessed I am. How very blessed 2 have a mum like you

this is wat i alwiz expect my bf to do

2008-04-25T05:24:00.000-07:00

When i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me. ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

When i repost this bulletin
[ i want you to read it ]

diarrhea

2008-04-25T01:37:00.000-07:00

this 2 days, i've very bad diarrhea..keep on going to toilet!!!but thank god, still not as worst as amirtha..she even vomited!!!everybody couldn't get use to the whether here, as it is super hot, like in sahara desert..haiz!!!

dunno wat i ate, but i kena la..i can't go to class, bcuz i have to b near the toilet whole day...easy for me to run in to the toilet...kekekekez!!!then i dare not take outside food aldi..this 2 days, i ownself cook porridge and baked beans..hope next week i can go class la!!!haiz...

this is the pic i took yesterday night...enjoying air cond in my own room...cuz it's too hot aldi, have to on air cond..this month electricity bill will b super high la..sigh!!!

my 2 stupid dogs

2008-04-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

introduce to you my 2 stupid dogs...

the upper 1, which is chocolate in colour, his name is coffee..he is given by my ex-bf for my christmas present!!!he is the most perverted dog i've ever met...even my roommate also scare bout him!!!he alwiz go around molest ppl and kacau ppl, especially my roommate...

the lower 1, her name is milk tea...i buy her when i went shopping in bangalore..she is a beautiful dog!!!she is coffee younger sister...she knows karate, she is not pervert...thank god, she din't learn all the bad stuff from her brother, coffee...she alwiz karate her bro when her bro start kacau-ing her...haha!!!

both are my dogs..i love them so much!!so purposely create a topic to describe bout them...